Okay, so here’s the story of the time I thought I’d found the right person to help me, which of course, made it all the more disappointing when it didn’t turn out to be the case. In telling my story, I’m choosing to gloss over every little ache and pain I had; every time I … Continue reading The doctor who *almost* helped me (How I developed central sensitization, Part 6)
I struggled with what to say on my blog this week, but I finally landed upon this idea as the thing that resonated with me at the current moment. Something I've been realizing, more and more every day, is how much time I've spent judging myself for the problems I've had. Not actively trying to … Continue reading Seeing things clearly, without that added layer of judgement on top
As I try to get braver about sharing this blog with the people in my everyday life (it's been relatively secret up until now), I want to be sure I'm clear about the fact that there are absolutely still days when I'm in pain. The purpose of my blog is not to tell you I've … Continue reading What’s in my chronic pain toolkit?
A little over a year ago, I started a second blog to focus on what I'd come to think of as this weird hip problem I'd had for years that no one seemed to understand (sacroiliac joint dysfunction). Among friends, I usually tried not to talk about it too much, because I didn't think anyone … Continue reading Healing our bodies, and the things that ripple across generations
When I first started this blog, I was angry. I never wrote about it, because I didn’t want to bring people down, but I was sick and tired of trying to explain my health issues to the people in my life, and feeling like they didn’t believe me. Maybe you can’t see the anger, because … Continue reading Being okay with uncertainty
When I first started this blog back in 2012, I kept it largely a secret from the people in my life. I wanted to help people struggling with the same things I’d been through, but I was afraid of the consequences of putting so much personal information online. After all, wasn’t putting a long list … Continue reading Maybe my weaknesses aren’t weaknesses. Maybe they are strengths.
For a few years, I was stuck: caught between all of the doctors I saw, who thought there was something wrong with me psychologically, and the fact that deep inside of me was a calm, inner voice that knew it just wasn’t true. *** Feeling as though I'd run out of other options, I became … Continue reading How I developed central sensitization: Part 5
Whew. I have really enjoyed writing my more personal posts recently-- I love to tell a good story, and to feel as though my past experiences have some meaning. (And I've really appreciated all your kind words, comments, and shares!). But also, wow-- some of those posts were very emotional for me. Right now I’m … Continue reading Learning about central sensitization: the power of naming, and the future of pain treatment
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8defN4iIbho I never know quite what to call the posts in which I share a video. Every title I think of sounds either click-baity or boring. Like for this one: “Mayo Clinic doctor explains central sensitization.” “Awesome video on central sensitization,” etc. etc. In this day and age… what do you call something that truly … Continue reading What I really want you to know
I began to wonder if something about the compartment syndrome and the leg surgery could have changed something in my chemical makeup, weakening my body and depleting its healing response. After all, pain was supposed to be my body’s way of telling me that I was injured. Something was broken; something was wrong. Time and … Continue reading How I developed central sensitization, Part 4